I'm really stressed...

Right now... Right this moment!!!

Cos I'm freaking out whether I should S/U my SS module!!!

Gah!!! I've seen the past exam questions, and frankly, I have no idea what they are talking about...
If I were to do it under exam conditions, sure die one...

"What is the relationship between official history and ideology in Singapore? How would you describe and explain the attitudes and approaches of political elites towards official history and ideology?"

My first reaction was "-----" i.e speechless...

"How have state power and the political relationship between state and society in Singapore changed (i) from early industrialisation in the 1960s and 1970s (ii) to the economic restructuring of the 1980s and 1990s?"

How the hell do I know???

Wah liao I really feel like S/U-ing it when I saw the bloody questions...
But we are allowed to S/U up to 3 times only!!!
So I don't really wanna waste it...
But I don't want to get a lousy grade for it too...

@$^@#^#$&!@^$&^%*#%*^%&#%&#

Along with the readings and term papers...

Think I must really kill my social life and concentrate fully on this...

Sianz... At the prime of my life, and I'm troubled by these...


And the funny thing is...
Whenever I'm stressed...
I get very Creative!!!

So now suddenly my head is brimming with ideas for the "Story" which I've completed halfway, and I keep getting dreams at night...
Adventure dreams... I always get it especially during exams period...
And I suddenly got the Urge...
The urge to dance lar...

Think I got infected by my friends...
Gangst8r's ZW, YL, HY and JX who joined some hip-hop dance classes at the CC paying a ridiculous amount of $85 to follow some over-enthusiastic bunny dancing...
YB who joined the hip-hop dance lessons in CAC to torture his body...

And ever since Engin O week and Engin Bash, where I was given the chance to groove to the music without people laughing, I begin to enjoy it alot...

Initially I use to hate dancing, becos of the stupid Chinese Dance CCA I was "forced" to join when I'm in primary 2...
The teacher is horrible, machiam like lion trainer like that...
Keep on forcing me to Bend! Bend!! BEND!!! my otherwise inflexible body...
And hitting me when I didn't pay attention... (Bloody child abuser)
How do you expect an 8 year old kid to pay attention??

Gah, so I quit within the year...
(And suay suay she became my chinese teacher in primary 5 I think... Wah, life was terrible...)

So now, I will be dancing to the music in my bedroom to destress whenever I got the chance...
Some people say I can "Self-High" and dance like nobody's business...
Meaning I can get high without the help of alcohol or whatever shitty-drugs you put inside your body to attain that...

Nope, I don't get self-high like that one...

I need Music...
Yeah, give me some really funky music... Anything with a good beat, and I will be swaying to it in no time like a coconut tree...


Rightttt... Look at the time...
11.35pm...
25 more minutes till the S/U thing is close...

*Breathe in*

*Breathe Out*

I Have Made My Decision...

And my decision is...

Is...

Erm...

Is...

I shall reveal it at 12am...

Oh crap, Okie lar!!! I have really made up my mind!!!

I Shall NOT S/U my SS...

Cos I believe that I will not be so dumb this time...
I will work super hard for it...
I will camp overnight in school to study if I have to...

So people... If I cannot join you in many activies... You know why...

Take pity on me and stop organising so many outings lar... You all no need study one meh??

Library is my second home... Who wanna move in with me??

P/s:
Happie Children Day!!!
To me and to all my friends...
May we stay young at heart forever...