I very nice!!!
I let you all see my baby picture!!!
Along with my little bratty brother and the eldest cousin...
Don't like to be put on display alone mah...


Actually, very obvious...
Can see which two are siblings...
Why the face so bloody alike one??
We can be twins in fact...


Eerrggg...
This photo not so nice, I must be having cramps...
That's why my mouth like that...
Never mind, next time I show you a cuter photo of me smiling...


See?!?!
So cute!!!

Oh ya, by the way, I AM Botak when I'm a Baby...
My granny wants my Mom to shave me bald!!!
From what they told me, I wasn't too happy about it, for I kick up a huge fuss at the barber shop...

Well well... Got a taste of what NS guys feel like when they first got enlisted...
Hahahahaha...

My Brain got Pattern??

How does my brain really work?
I was asked to pick the image that appeals to me most...
But then, I'm very frickled minded... And greedy, so I got 2 instead...

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

That is my first choice...

Here's the second...

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent. You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored. You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts. And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Hmmm...
Accurate, no??
Hahahaha...

Where should I go??

Being thinking about it, in and out...
In lectures...
In tutorials...
When eating...
When bathing...
Whenever I'm bored or free(if I ever had any...)...

Which Engin Disciplines should I go after my first year??

Hmm... Intially I wanted to go Environmental Engin, but after hearing many negative remarks, including that they only take in 3-4 common engin students (with my current grades... Forget it...), I started thinking about other choices...

But I have freaking No Useful information about what the other courses are like and what will the future career be?!?!

What the...

Anyway...


Choice of Engineering Disciplines for Common Engineering students

Table g: Modules necessary for allocation
Modules	BIE*	ChE	CE	CPE	EE	EV	ISE	MSE	ME
MA1505 Mathematics I	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
MA1506 Mathematics II	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
PC1431 Physics IE	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
EG1108 Electrical Engineering	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
EG1109 Statics and Mechanics of Materials	X		X			X	X	X	X
CS1101C Programming Methodology	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
PC1432 Physics IIE	X		X	X	X	X	X	X	X
CM1502 General and Physical Chemistry for Engineers		X				X
CN1111 Chemical Engineering Principles		X

BIE: Bioengineering, ChE: Chemical Engineering, CE: Civil Engineering, CPE: Computer Engineering, EE: Electrical Engineering, EV: Environmental Engineering, ISE: Industrial & Systems Engineering, MSE: Materials Science & Engineering and ME: Mechanical Engineering.

Hmmm...
My initial choice was EV...
Look at those boxes...
8 out of 9 boxes cross... Which means I have to take on at least 1 or 2 more modules than the others...

I hate physics and neither does it adores me...
But unfortunately, it is a compulsory module... (Engin wad... Of cos got physics lar!!!)

At first I really hate Statics and Mechanics...
But after I pass my one and only test, which is it, I decided to love it afterall...

Arrggg... Programming is also another compulsory module...
But Chemistry isn't... Now don't really feel like studying chemistry, after the last disastrous test...
Not to mentioned that I constantly fall asleep in lectures... Due to the hypnotising effect the lecturer had very successfully achieved...

Sigh...

BIE?? Nah, no biology background...

ChE?? Too much competition... No confidence... Sigh...

CE?? Siao...

CPE?? No way...

EE?? No idea... Dunno what's it is like... Can consider...

EV?? Well...

ISE?? What in the world is that??

MSE?? Sounds interesting...

ME?? What do they do?? Built robots?? Hahaha...

See those in Bold??
Well, I may need to find out more information on them, if I want to consider them...

Anyone can help me??

My Ideal Career...

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Darn...

That is so no link to engineering...

Difficult times ahead...

Had a conversation with one of my friend a few days ago...
We were talking about which engin we are going into when we hit year two...

My friend was saying that if he couldn't get into the course he wanted, he may wanna quit school...
Cos he wasn't interested nor good enough to go into other areas...

I dunno whether he was kidding or being serious...
But I feel that it would be a waste if he really did quit school...
Afterall, just because of some failures, forgoing the entire university education is not worth it...
You had the chance which many others don't...
Don't waste it...
Don't give up...


These few days I’ve being thinking about my choice of study…
On whether I have made the right decision…
And even if I decided to stay in Engin…
Which course should I go??
Initially, I wanted to go into Environmental Engin…
Now having second thoughts…
What am I good at??
Which do I really like??
So many questions…
Zero answers…
Only time will tell…


But all I know is that…
I can’t afford to give this up…
I have already gotten the loan for paying my fees…
My family has been spending a lot on the remaining fees uncovered and many other school stuff…
Not to mentioned that my brother may go to Uni too, in 5 years time…

And my Mom just told me…
That our family financial situation is getting from bad to worse…
My Dad’s business has been losing money for years…
His partner has been borrowing money from banks to turn their tide, but to no avail…
All the recent incidents, such as the terrorism, the natural disasters in so many countries, the rising oil prices, and the increasingly global competition, all have an impact on my Dad’s business…
Because of the rising oil prices, due to the stupid hurricane, many fishermen from other countries stop working or decrease their fishing activity…
Which means that my Dad couldn’t get any fish to sell…
And there are so many competitors, especially those belonging to giant companies, they are really pushing small business like my Dad’s to extinction…
Globalisation isn’t an entirely good thing…

So my Mom said…
If this carries on, my Dad may be forced to sell his business within 3 years…
And he will be around 51-52 by then…
Unemployed…
Me and my brother will still be schooling…

What will happened to us…

My Lorry... Or Rather, it's my Dad's...

Today, after my last class...
I have to stay back for a while to discuss CTW stuff with my group members...
And after that, kind ah-nick offered to send me home!!! (Since we live pretty close to each other)
So off to his car we go...

Nice car, quite nice, although ah-nick says it's old...
(Where got... U should see JiH's... Oops...)

Anyway, as I was in his car...
I suddenly remembered my Dad's car...
No wait...
Make that "my Dad's Lorry"...
See!!! That's Me!!! Hahahahahaha...

The year was 1987...
Just 6 months after I was borned, my Dad got this car.. errmm... Lorry...
So if it was still alive now, it would be 18+ already...
Can watch M18 movies le!!!
-___-;
Sigh... Too bad it went to the scrapeyard at the tender age of 15...

That's my Dad... Back when he can still see his feet while standing up straight...

I remembered that it was kinda cramp in the front, cos it was a small lorry...
Before my brother was out, I have all the front seats to myself...
Errm... Sharing with my Mom of course...

I used to sit right in the middle, as my Mom don't trust me to sit by the windows, probably fearing that my itchy fingers would go and unroll/unlock/play around with the window and door...
And then when I am tired, I would lie down horizontally, my head on my Mom's lap and sleeeep...
(Yes, I used to be short once...)
So comfortable!!!

A few years later, out pops my brother...
And I have to learn to share my territory with another small being...

My Dad loved to take the family out for outings back then...
And my Aunt do tagged along sometimes...
So four people squeezing into a seat for two...
Me on Aunt's lap, Bro on Mom's lap...
And thus, I got the chance to sit by the windows!!!
Whheeeee...
I keep unrolling the entire window down so that I can poke my head out...
But unfortunately, my Mom doesn't like all the wind that is blowing in... (Messed up her hair she says...)
So can only open half half lo...
My Mom... And her then Hair-do... Hahah... The lorry was so new that its license plate Glows...

Then when me and my Bro became too big for the ladies' lap, we were confined to the back of the lorry...
.
.
.
.
.

And there it becomes a whole new adventure...


Me and Bro...
We had such wild imaginations...
Whenever we are in the mood, we would imagine that we are in a hunter's truck, and that those cars/buses/vehicles behind us were all Dinosaurs!!!
So if you listened carefully enough, you can hear us screaming...
"OOOHHH!!! Look at that that three-horn dino!!! No lar!!! That is the one with the long neck... AAARRRGGG T-REX!!! AAAHHHHH!!!!!"
Very exciting...
It was a great Time-Passer, as it can get pretty boring watching the scenery all the time...

Either that or we will play guessing games, such that I saw something with the words on it and he have to find it in the surroundings fast enough before the lorry zooms passed it and becomes too far to see...
Sometimes we cheated by saying something we saw inside another car, cos that is practically impossible to catch, unless you suay suay kena stuck in traffic jams...
That's my youngest Uncle... He's about 13-14 at that time... Hahaha...
I'm in every picture... Too bad, I'm the one and only child then...


I loved sitting at the back...
Where there's no shelter, no barriers, no nothing...
Just wind, cold fast flowing wind breezing through your face...
I loved the feel of the wind...
So much that even if there are space for me to sit in front, I would refuse and choose the back instead...
Cos there are far more things to see, to explore, to experience out back there...
(Can be quite embarassing sometimes if I'm wearing a skirt... Or if it starts raining... Then it will be newspaper time...)


I loved this lorry...
Because of all the memories attached to it...
My childhood... All there...
All there...

No mood to write...

Really no mood lar...

So I juz follow YB...

Anyhow go take some random test/quiz/blah blah to copy and paste inside here and pretend that I'm really an active blogger instead of some lazy crap...

Here goes:

Your Birthdate: June 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer (Sure anot... Then how come my table so messy??), but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit (heheh... Just ask my bro...). You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. (Yeah!!!) Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. (awww... I'm flattered... *blush*) Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. (issit??) You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. (Oh... How come none of these stupid test/quiz/stuff seemed to predict the same thing??) Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some. (Well... This is kinda true... Hee...)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Yeah... I'm ermm... Borned on Friday the Thirteenth...
Errm... So that makes me... Special, no??

Afterall... Sometimes I think I bring bad luck to people!!!
Muwhahahahahahaha...

-_-;


Okay... Another one...

Your Band Name is:

The Bad Mutha Ninjas

Band Name Generator

Wuwhahahahahah...

And YH actually used to call me Ninja Turtle...


My Hair Colour Should be...

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy. You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Woohooo...

Im a red-head!!!


Annnndddd my True Age is.....

You Are 15 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Wah liao...
Now cannot blame people if they say I look like a 15-16 year old...
That's probably becos I act like one too...
Duh...
*Slaps self*


Guess my Birth Order??

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

Hey!!! So Accurate!!!
I AM a First Born...
But that's about it...


And Lastly...
The Key To My Heart...
Pay Attention...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

( '__' )

Aiyo... These kind of things accurate or not... (no...)


Sigh...
Good night...

Spur of the moment...

It was a lazy Thursday late afternoon...
Students are usually seen sleeping in lectures/tutorials/study benches/on bus/at home/anywhere...
Why??
Cos it's lazy late afternoon...
Our brains are mostly inactive after lunch...

I was in my chemistry lecture...
Nearly dozed off if it weren't for my doodling...
Somewhat heard the lecturer talking about exams or something...
Instantly, I became alert...
And with sudden realisation, I remembered that exams are coming!!!
In fact, it was only next month!!!
Oh mY gOOdnEsS!!!!!

I am NOT READY!!!

*panicpanicpanicpanicpanic*

In the midst of the unexpected anxiety...
I was overwhelmed by a severe case of ...
Inspiration...


The days are speeding,
My time is almost up...
I must once face,
What haunts me much...

Forgo everything,
That is a luxury...
No more delaying,
Until you face the enemy...


All within 5 minutes... Hah...

I scanned quickly around the lecture hall...
Okay, YB still sleeping... Heehee...


I staggered and stumbled,
Across the rough terrain...
Struggling to see,
What lies ahead of me...

Breathing is a burden,
Near excurciating...
I raised my head,
With all my energy...

Darkness looms,
Far far ahead...
Never-ending it seems,
Or blind I must be...

Exhausted, I gave up,
Slumped to the floor...
With tears that flow,
I could hang on no more...


Took me less than 10 minutes...

I must be a genius...
Hahaha...

It has been a long time...

It has been a long time since...
I had picked up a book and have a good read...

It has been a long time since...
I bought a new comic book to enjoy...

It has been a long time since...
I really sat down for more than an hour to draw...

It has been a long time since...
I went out for an outing with my family...

It has been a long time since...
I had a good laugh and a fun time with my brother...

It has been a long time since...
I had a good chat with my friends...

It has been a long time since...
I hang out with my gang of eight all together...

It has been a long time since...
I spent an entire day with my special guy...

It has been a long time since...
I had a nice cuddle with him...

It has been a long time since...
I had all the time in the world...

It has been a really long time...

Arrrggghh...

Now in school, It unit, trying to search for some stuff for ctw...

Just had my chemistry test...

I swear... Those tutors and lecturers were in it together...
Cos everytime I do the tutorial, it is do-able...
Unfortunately, it is always not the case for the test they set...
Not tto mentioned the fact that quite a number of information is lacking in the notes they gave us...

I'm gonna get low marks again...

Just draw this in the com...

My facial expression is gonna stay that way forever if I keep encountering such tests...

(By the way, thanks YB for borrowing and bringing that Heavy chem TB to school for me... Although I didn't used it, I still appreciate your efforts!!! Thanks!!!)

Busy Break...

Sunday Night...

And I'm at home, siting in front of the computer, eating instant noodles again while my family and maybe many of my friends were out there having fun...

After hours of doing physics online tutorial, searching for chemistry notes, typing ctw stuff and etc...
I stopped to eat my dinner and blog a little to relax myself...

Things were getting more frantic now...
Exams are looming near...

I'm so busy that I'm struggling to dish out time (especially during the weekends) for my friends, family, squirrel, studies and school work (includes the dreaded CTW project)...

So sorry people, especially my dear friends for not spending enough time with you all...
I will try to squeeze out time, I hope...


In the midst of all those studying and gathering comes a...

Scandal!!!

Many of you were guessing who that 'friend' of mine was...

Shit lar, thought it was freaking obvious that I don't wished to indulge who that 'friend' is??
And by the way, I have friends outside NUS too...
The case is over...
So you can stop guessing dear YT...
It is neither a 'he' or a 'her'...
It is an 'it'...
*snorts*





I have made my decision...
.
.
.
.
.
I will eat more dark chocolate from now on...

-___-;

I'm having second thoughts...

I'm in Engineering Faculty...
Which means I will most probably be an engineer or do something related to it when I graduated...

Just today (well... yesterday to be more exact... It's past midnight le...), I went to the physics lecture which I have long been avoiding (and shall forever be skipping... I made a mistake of going back...)...

And there, since I was really bored and yet do not want to sleep for fear of scaring others with my snorings, I decided to doodle...

Which means I started drawing...

And then ah-mui, who was sitting besides me (and hence have to suffer vandalisation to her notes) looked at my works and said something like "Eh, you know how to draw leh... It's a pity you didn't go study art..."


Then it hit me...

Am I going to be an engineer for the rest of my life??
Am I going to go into a career which isn't exactly my ideal choice of job??
What if in the midst of all the working and struggling in the rat race that I didn't leave any time for my art...
Or worse... Forgot how to draw??

Nooo...

I must admit...
The engineering modules...
They aren't really my type...
I'm not really good at physics and stuff...
Vectors, scalars, circular and rotational forces etc etc...
All seemed so alien to me...
And now my maths, when compared to the rest, seemed very lousy too...

What the hell am I doing in here?!?!

Time for some deep thinking session...

Some People...

Why are there people in this world...

Who just refuses to budge, refuses to break their exterior ice, barring others from their warmth, no matter how hard the rest try??

I keep having this feeling about this particular 'friend'...
If that 'friend' would consider me to be one in the first place...

I tried to be friendly...
I tried to laugh around with the 'friend'...
I tried to help when the 'friend' is in need...
Tried to well... Be friends...

Unfortunately...
It doesn't seemed to be working...
I still feel the 'trespassers keep out' aura oozing out from that 'friend'...

Maybe this 'friend' is the quiet type...
Or maybe just way too shy...
But it's kinda hard to be shy around me...
Or so I thought...
Afterall, that 'friend' had known me for more than a couple of months...

I have quite a number of friends...
Though not a large number, but it is enough to keep me happy...
If I already have such nice groups of friends, why do i need one more??
Afterall, this 'friend' doesn't seemed to apprieciated my efforts...
Sometimes I stopped and think...
Why should I waste my time??
Some people are just not worth it...
But as I delved deeper...
I feel that this could be a potential wonderful friendship...
We had common ideas...
We are slightly different in some ways from others...
Yet we are unalike in many aspects too...

It is...
Unique...


Oh well...

Hmmmnnn...

Was wondering...

How many of ya readers are my friends??
Those who knows me personally??

Ehh... Secret admirers from a far doesn't counts...
HeeHee...
But you can leave your name if you want, and I see if I shall get back to you anot...
Hahahahahahaa...

Oi...
So leave a message at the comments link can??
Pretty please??


Anyway...
I've not being updating regularly...
Sorry lar... School's tight...
Everyone's mugging... Well... What to do, of course must follow lar...
(oh... When is holidays coming??)

Sigh... CTW project is heating up...
Burning my weekends...
But I wanna go out with my little squirrel!!!
It's Nearly ONE Month...
That's how long I didn't get to see him...

Where's my little squirrel...

Whee!!!

I'm Happy!!!
I'm HAPPY!!!

Yea!!!
It's being good so far...
I've complete my homework and stuff, especially the chem lab report...

The pain has gone...

And most importantly...

My Little Squirrel Is Back!!!!!

WoooooooooOOOOOOOHHHooooooohhHOHOHOHhhhhOOOOOOhhhhhOOOOOOO.....

LaLlLLlaaAaALLLLLAaAaaAALLLLALALaaLLLLLLAAAALllllllaaaaAAAAA...

Hey wait... I cannot be happy all the way...
Cos I'm about to embark on my CTW project lor...
Sigh...

Never mind...
I shall enjoyed it while it last!!!

Im in pain...

Terrible pain...

Owww...

Excuse me while I go yell in agony as the cramps start up...

*Walks behind a door and locks it...*

(muffled) "aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh"

*walks out*

Thank you for your kind understanding and cooperation...
If anybody wants to help, you can eased my pain by buying chocolates for me...
I prefer dark ones, milk chocolates are too sweet...

-_-;