My Most Feared Phobia...

I was in JC2...
In a lecture hall...
A teacher was announcing that some guy was receiving some sort of scolarship award...
I walked away from where I was sitting to another seat besides an ex-classmate of mine in SCSS...
I reached under the table to collect my textbooks...
Only to find an exam time-table...
And realised that tomorrow was 'A' level Maths examination...
I was shock and started to panic...
I turn to talk about my discovery to that ex-classmate...
Then I realised people were whispering all around me...
All of them were looking at me with disdain in their eyes...

At night, for some last minute advice, I was SMS-ing my Chemistry teacher about which part of the Maths chapters were more likely to appear for exams...
As I was doing that, me and my family were walking towards a bus-stop at near our house...
When suddenly a HUGE BROWN WOLF appear and started running all over the place...
My father was trying to avoid running into it's path while I just ignored it and continue SMS-ing...
Just when I reached the bus-stop...
I drop-dead...
There right at the floor, without any warning at all...
I become a ghost and saw my body on the floor along with my dropped handphone...
My family started to board the bus...
I followed them...
The bus was slightly different...
I squeeze past some commuters and found a seat...
I was sitting with my brother...
I ask him why didn't he pick up my handphone when I dropped it...
He said nothing...
I was angry because I didn't want anyone to take my handphone and delete all the messages away...
So I started to complain to my mom...
But realised that she could not hear me as well...
So I took a board and some soy sauce as ink out of nowhere and started to write her a message, which turns out to be gibberish...

I realised that I was going to lose my handphone for good...
Which means I would lose all my treasured messages inside...
I do not want to lose my messages, for they were from my YZ and my best friends...
Then it hit me that since I was dead I will not be able to communicate nor touch all my loved ones again...
I was devastated...
I disappear and reappear in my bedroom...
I was crying and throwing a tantrum...
I do not want to die and lose everthing I have...
My family, my friends, my boyfriend and all my loved ones...

I was so upset that I wake up crying...
.
.
.
.
.
Then I realised...
It was all a DREAM!!!!!

I was so relieved!!!
But still I could not shake off those feelings...

The feelings of helplessness,
loneliness,
sadness,
desperateness,
hopelessness...

Losing my loved ones is my most feared phobia...

Since death does not discriminated,
I will have to faced this phobia sooner or later...
I just prayed that it will not come to any one of us soon.....

May God Bless All Of You.....

Oh No!!!

It was a fateful day...

I should have known it...
After all, bloody superstitions don't exists for nothing...

I just spoilt YL's handphone!!!!!
After a black cat just crossed my path!!!!!

*gasp*

It happened on 24/4/05, ZW's birthday celebration...
Me, YL, HY meet early early to go buy buy food to make make err... food...
But me and HY were late (harhar no surprise)...
But we still managed to finish our shopping and prepare the food just in time...

We held our celebration at the pool side in YL's condo...
But when me and HY went up to YL's house to prepare the food,
Lo and Behold...
What a Sight greet our eyes...
It was a bloody mess!!!!!
Now whenever my room gets messy and dirty, I'll just picture YL's house in my mind and feel tons better afterwards...

No offence YL... I'm speaking the truth... Nothing but the truth...
This is to warn any future visitors who may happen to have the misfortune to walk into her house...
Caution#1: Watch your steps... Don't trip over that bag/suitcase/box/clothes/chair/whatever things that is on the floor...
Caution#2: Watch out for cockroaches... They appear and disappear like magic... And they FLY...
Caution#3: As a follow-up to #2, do not open any cupboards/drawers/anything with dark spaces insides unless you want to die of a heart attack from the fright you received when a cockroach suddenly FLY towards you from inside there...
Caution#4: Wash your utensils before you use them if you do not want to get food poisoning... Think rampant cockroaches in the house...
Caution#5: Beware of YL's famous SLAP and PUNCH... I think I will get it if she saw this post... Uh-oh...

So anyway, we get a really big fright when YL open her cupboard in her bedroom, and suddenly a HUGE FLYING COCKROACH came charging towards YL!!!
It fluttered to the floor to escape before changing its stupid mind and flew up again onto the bed frame to scare the shit out of us!!!
We screamed our heads off, so loud that I believed if my mom had strained her ears a bit more, she would have heard us from MY house...

That stupid cockroach must be laughing at us...
"What a nice cosy place I have here... Going to sleep now... Zzzzz... Oh No!!! What is that piercing light?? AAAHHH I've been discovered!!! RUN!!! No wait, FLY much faster!!! Must escape to my cousin's lair in the next room before I get hit by the shoe again!!! Ehh?? Wait a minute, it is not that woman who killed all my uncles and wipe out my dad, it's her daughter!!! Heeheehee, scary cat she is... So afraid of lil' me!!! Ah, I think I shall fly up onto her lovely bed frame to scare her... Oh just look, she had her scary kitty friends with her as well... Just listened to them screaming their lungs out!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA..... Take that you stupid humans!!!"

(-_-;)
But luckily, the cockroach had enough of our scheeches and fly away...
Yeah!!! Saved...

So later in the afternoon, we ate and chat by the poolside...
Then SDR arrived, he had just booked out from Tekong yesterday...
Wah, BOTAK sia~
WAHAHAHAHA
Now can measure the exact size of his big head without his thick stiff hair hindering...
SDR even good-naturely pose an act cute picture for us to take...
Hmmm... Must let the our ex-jj classmates see...

But sadly, he had to leave soon...
Even before MF our last member arrived...
Sigh~ So much for group gathering...

But we still have fun!!!
Cos me and JX and ZW swim!!!
It was so bloody hot that we couldn't resist!!!
(But unfortunately, it rain much later, on and off... suxxx)

Now back to the superstition...
I remembered that we had encountered a black cat crossing in front of us somewhere...
Ya and later, at the poolside, we were fooling around and pushing people into the pool...
Which ZW unluckily keep getting pushed... Birthday girl what... No choice heeheeheehee...
But just when YL was pushing ZW into the pool, I pushed her in...
Opps... HEr handphone was inside her pocket...
(@_@;)

OH NOOOOOOOOOOO.......
When I went to rescued it, I can see the water inside the screen...
Wah like fish tank...
So I shook the phone, praying that water will somehow just seeped out...
Hai~
Well, it sort of work but the handphone could not be operated for a while...
So we let it air out...
Thank goodness at night it begin to work...
But the display screen is spoilt...
The keypad as well...
And I think even the vibrator thing...

Gotta go repair it tomorrow...
No $$$ soon...

Moral of the story: Always empty your pockets before playing...

I'm bored!!!

What is wrong with the world...

How can me, a promising-full-of-potential-smart youth, get stuck at home with nothing to do??

Here's how my days goes:
9.00am: Woke up, see the clock, decide that it's too early, proceed to fall asleep...
10.00am: Re-wake, see the clock, curse myself for getting up so late, proceed to bathroom...
10.10am: Done with the bathroom, hear stomach complaining, proceed to kitchen...
10.15am: Get nag by mom for sleeping so much, auto-ear-shutting gear kicks in, demand for breakfast like a 5-year-old kid...
10.20am: Get breakfast successfully, but not before I have to switch the ear-shutting gear to from low to med, proceed to computer...
10.30am: Online and log into MSN, pause to think what to do, think for a long time, then proceed to check email...
2.00pm: Finally, ear-shutting gear could not be turned any further up than very high, mom's words has penetrated through, start to shut down computer, decided to invest in a better ear-shutting gear...
2.05pm: Stare blankly into the wall, wondering what the hell am I doing at home and not out and about having fun/working/doing something productive...
6.45pm: Still staring, then ear-shutting device automatically shut down, thus enabling me to hear mom yelling at me to eat dinner...
7.00pm: Since left with absolutely nothing to do, I have no choice but to watch TV, something which I have not done since 1998...
10.00pm: No more good shows, walk towards my bedroom before realising that I have walk into the kitchen, then realised my eyes are shut...
10.05pm: Dash towards the bathroom to beat Dad in occupying it as he can stay in it for more then an hour, after which the bathroom will emit a suspicious smell...
10.15pm: Yell at brother to quit singing and strumming the guitar to "That Thing You Do" by The Wonders and told him that only Jay Chou can carry off that kind of monotone singing...
10.30pm: Give up yelling and decided to go ahead and sleep, at the same time, manual switch on my ear-shutting gear to high...
11.30pm: Brother finally got hoarse at singing and went to bed... Yeah!!! Torture time over!!!
12++pm: Managed to fall asleep... zzzzz.....

See?! That is how boring my life is!!!
AAARRRGGGHHH.....
I am badly in need of a job!!!!!

Somebody Save Me.....

What the Heck... Bloody IDIOTIC MALE EGO...

What a day...

Me just went out for a gathering with my ex-co-worker...
Out to sunny Sentosa, it seems like a wonderful day...
Lalala to the beach and the sea!!!!!
One of my favourite places in the world!!!!!
XD

But then it's quite obvious that our group of people is not really that close...
Cos we unintentionally break off into 3 groups once in the MRT...
Group 1: me, ZW, YL
Group 2: B, E, JH
Group 3: HL, HX, YH, HM
Sigh~~

Then at Sentosa, Palawan Beach, our group splits into two...
One to go cycling, the rest to go play at the beach and swim...
So much for gathering...

The cycling group were really 'absent'...
Left us to take care of the bags without even bothering about us...

But the conflict happened when it began raining...
Boom... Shoorrhh...
Here comes the rain~
Left in the rain, in charge of the bloody bags, were me, YL, JH, B...
We, in the fast thickening rain, begin to pile all the bags and cover them up with a mat...
Then B started to call one of the people in the cycling group as to wonder why are they taking so long (we waited for them for more then half an hour)...
They told us that they were at the 7-11 store, which is less than a 5 minute walk from where we were...

So we waited and waited...
While the rain fall on us...
In vain...
For we found out later that they are staying at 7-11 to stay away from the rain...
Oh fine, so we quickly searched for a shelter which is close to our bags and have to squeeze with a bunch of people as well...
We were drenched and shivering with cold...
Cold wind blew against us...
Brrr...

We were still not angry with them then cos we try to understand that they are probably afraid of the rain to even come and save us...
But we hit the roof when they came to us RIDING IN A TRAM and WAVING AT US HAPPILY...
Then they beelined towards our bags and making SARCASTIC remarks...
E.g1: "Wah you all even have the brains to covered up our bags lar?"
E.g2: "Hey, it's not that we don't want to come back earlier, it's because the tram didn't come earlier, so it's NOT OUR FAULT." (in a highly irritating tone)

Without any form of gratitude or apology!!!

.....
Our face grows even darker than the sky above...
So we took our bags and stride off silently...
In the rain and took less than 5 minutes to reach the 7-11 store...
We were so bloody furious and hungry...
So while we were eating, we waited for their apology...
Only ZW and the HM (HM looked pretty reluctance) come forward to say sorry...
We tell them that we will only forgive if all of them come and apologise to us...
Then we took off again to shower...

Then after we had finished, ZW come to us to start explaining...
Blah blah about why they can't come to us earlier and such...
All of us, me and YL and B and a lil JH, begin our 'debate'...

#1: HM is sick so they don't want to walk in the rain cos of her...
Rebut: If she is sick, then she shouldn't even come to Sentosa to expose herself to the hot sun nor cycle even!!! So obviously she wasn't that sick as she did both, so what's a few minutes of rain??
Even if she doen't wants to get wet cos of that excuse, then what about the rest of the guys?? Can't they just leave a few to accompany her while the rest come to us to carry the bags and go to 7-11 together?? Surely they can't be that afraid of the rain??

#2: They are really sorry for leaving us in the rain...
Rebut: Don't see any of the guys coming up to apologise... Not sincere at all...

#3: If they weren't sincere, or heck care about us, they would not be sitting down now talking, they would be playing volleyballs or games liao...
Rebut: Ya, they are sitting down and doing NOTHING... No attempts to pacify us...
Oh and they can't exactly begin playing games much earlier as it was raining then...

#4: You can't expect guys to come and apologise, cos they got their pride or ego, it's very hard for them, must understand...
Rebut: UNDERSTAND MY FOOT!!!!! I HATE this PATHETIC REASON the most!!!
SO WHAT?? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT PRIDE OR EGO THESE FEW MISERABLE GUYS HAVE!!!
DO THEY NOT HAVE TO APOLOGISE FOR ANY WRONG THEY HAVE DONE JUST BASED ON THIS STUPID REASON???
WHAT ABOUT US GIRLS THEN?? DO WE NOT HAVE OUR OWN PRIDE?? MUST WE BOWED DOWN TO THEM?? OR JUST FORGIVE THEM BASED ON THIS??


F*#% IT!!!!!


So I said to ZW "THIS IS A BAD EXCUSE FOR BAD BEHAVIOUR!!!!!"
"I DO NOT ACCEPT IT!!!"
"TELL THEM TO COME UP TO US, NOT WE WALK UP TO THEM, AND LET THEM APOLOGISE!!!"
"ALL OF THEM!!! NOT ONE LESS!!! DON'T GIVE ME THE CRAP OF GUY'S EGO OR THEIR DAMN PRIDE!!!"
"I HAVE MANY MALE FRIENDS WHO HAVE NO PROBLEM SAYING SORRY WHEN THEY ARE IN THE WRONG!!!"
All of these in a loud, nearing yelling (probably reached aready) tone...

So poor ZW slunk back to that group...
Well I shouldn't have yelled at her cos she had aready apologise and it is not entirely her fault as I know her character inside out...
But I just couldn't helped it...
I'm so mad!!!

If they have tried to apologised earlier at 7-11, sincerely and unreluctantly, we would have forgiven them straight away...
But male 'pride' and 'ego'...
If I had a hammer...

After a while, ZW came back again to deliver the final straw...
She said "errmm... Different people have different point of view about this..."

In other words, some of them are not really sorry at all...
So B stormed away...
Me and YL and JH a bit shocked at her sudden departure...
JH chased up to her to beg her to stay for his sake(at this point of time JH is not really that angry with them anymore, for he is really close with some of them)...
B ignored him...
Me and YL started to follow, after all what is the point of staying...
JH beg us not to leave...
Along came HX from that group...
His first line "So what's up??"
(-_-;)
What's up, ya right, obviously he hasn't got a clue, ZW must be really lousy in conveying our message...
So I listed to him all of our reasons for being angry, and he sort of admit that they were in the wrong...
But he also said that not all of them feels sorry...
HL especially does not feel that he is in any wrong...
So when B called us to see if we want coffee, we walked away from them, leaving JH to return...
What an attemped by dear JH to show off his short-lived temper...

Ta-dah...
End of friendship...
Good for YL who constantly gets bullied and taken for granted by them...
Who needs friends like them anyway...
Oh but I'll keep ZW's and JH's...
About the rest, maybe HX since he did feel sorry... And maybe HM since she did say sorry I think...

But for the rest...

#%$#^%&^%*$&%&$&&%$^*%&^&$&$% to HL, YH, E.....
Be careful, I may put laxative in your food... Be very careful...

The End... Currently still too pissed off to write any further...

The Farewell Sleepover

Remember the last time I said about a sleepover at HY’s house?
Well, it happened on 02/04/05…

We were supposed to meet at 6.45pm cos we’re going to K-box for the 7pm-3am slot…
But then, as usual, EVERYONE sms to tell me that they will be late…
Thus, I decided to be late as well, because as always, for every freaking gathering, everyone will be late…
Even if I purposely come late, I’ll still be the first one, unless once in a while I will be the 2nd…
On the MRT, I sms all of them "who will exceed 7pm tell me".
And guess what? EVERYONE replied…
(>____<)

So I reach the entrance at Lot1 at 7pm, waiting, waiting, waiting…
First comes SDR, next is YL, followed by HY…
Then we went in at 7.30pm… Sigh…
Finally at around 8pm, ZW and JX arrived, very big shot of them…

Record-Breaking : JX, late for 1 hour and 15 minutes
Maintaining-Standard : ZX, fail to break her earlier record of 1 hour and 20 minutes by just 5 minutes!!! What a waste, tsk tsk…

TA-DAH!!!
The entire group is here!!! So let’s sing-shout-yell-screech-holler our hearts out!!!
(MF and WL unfortunately could not grace this occasion, but what the heck, we were having too much fun to miss them… Sorry kiddos)
But the bad thing is, all of them keep singing the same songs over-and-over as it is with the past K-boxing sessions…
Namely, F.I.R, S.H.E, Liang Xin Ru, Sun Yan Zi blah blah…
Juz these few freaking chinese songs!!!!!
I dunno how they can take it, but I’m sick of hearing the same songs being sung for EVERY k-boxing sessions…
In fact I heard them for sooooo many times that I can even sing along with them even though I don’t listen much to chinese songs…
Ok maybe F.I.R and Sun Yan Zi not so bad, but pleaseeee, not another S.H.E!!!!!
The reason being is that the ratio of S.H.E songs to the ratio of F.I.Rs and to the ratio of Sun Yan Zi is like : 10:3:2…..
I had enough of their high screeches!!!!!!
AAARRRGGGHHH……
The worst of all is : the ratio of english songs being sung to that of chinese is about : 2:9
Usually, I’m the only one, or with YL, in singing the few miserable songs…..
Very low spirits…..

The Spoiler of the Entire Evening…..
Goes to…...
*Drum rolls*
"The Bloody K-box Staff Kicks Us Out Before The Time Is Up"

Some guy knock on our door to collect money at about 11.15pm…
Then at around 11.30pm, he told us to leave…
Do your Maths, this means that we only sang for 11.30pm - 7.30pm = 3 hours!!!!!
THREE HOURS
3 HOURS
SAN XIAO SHI
1/8 of the day
3/8 of the allocated time

And at a very @#$%&* expensive price, adds up to around $25.10 per person…
Meaning it cost us $8.36666666666666666666666666666666666667 per hour!!!!!!
This suxxxxxxxxx……
I’m pretty anti-kbox right now…
But on the brighter side, we get to catch the last MRT home!!!
So no need spend $$$ on cabbie!!!
Yeah!!!

Then at HY house, we slack around a bit, surf the net a bit, eat a bit, crap a bit…
At the last resort, before we fade into "boredomness", we watch the very stupid-stereotyping-funny movie "The White Chick"

Stupid Blondie Twin #1: Your mother blah blah (insults)
Black Guy Pretending to be Rich Blonde Sister #1: Your mother is so old that her breast milk is powder!!!

BUWHAHAHAHA……

Ok Ok, it’s stupid…
This movie is only good for people with nothing to do, or who just want a couple of laughs…
Otherwise, forget it…
Then it’s lights out and zzzzz…..

That’s all kids…

I'm Rejected.....

So it's true.....

The old saying of that whenever an employer gives you the reply "Thank you for your interested, we will revert to you soon", is almost like saying straight to your face "Sorry, but we don't want you".

:'0

Ouch

I'm still trying to grasp the concept that they don't want me. Kinda hard...
Sigh...
Oh well, back to jobstreet.com then.....

Phobias

Let's talk about phobias today...

I'm sure plenty of people around the streets of Singapore would agree that we all have at least one or two phobias right?

Phobia:
1)A persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of a specific thing or situation that compels one to avoid it, despite the awareness and reassurance that it is not dangerous.
2)A strong fear, dislike, or aversion.

I personally have at least 5 phobias and still counting...
Let me tell you about one of my secret phobia... (well almost secret anyway)

Well ahem.....

I.....


I am very afraid of job interviews and the first day at work...
(-_-;)

Hmm... A bit of over-dramatic am I ?

From a very young age, I've have been afraid of meeting and talking to total strangers...
Especially the talking to strangers part...
I guess it is partly due to a lack of experience...
I said partly because I've been taking Oral Exams since I was like, in primary one? and yet everytime it was nearing to my turn, I nearly freak out...
I'm so nervous that my knees keep shaking...
My voice keep trembling...
I cannot cannot cannot look at the examiner in their faces...
(But then luckily my results have always been good... *smirks*)

But I'm very afraid of job interviews because they are quite similar to Oral Exams, with harder questions sometimes...
Oral Exams and Job Interviews:
- you have to queue up for your turn
- you have to enter into a room where your examiners/interviewers are waiting for you...
- you have to sit facing them
- first impressions counts
- they will question you!!!!! (the scariest part)

*gasp* *gulp* (breathing very shakily now)

I especially hate questions like this: (as told by my friends or hear-say...)
- may I know how will you contribute to our company etc...
(you have jobscope when you hire people right? that means that the person will contribute to your company according to the certain jobscope lar!!!)
- why must I hire you?? (you have vacancies)
- what certain qualities in your personality that would make hiring you an asset to our company? (...)

(>_<)!!!!! Want me to write you an essay?? Please, spare me the agony of answering such questions..... (some part-time jobs like distributing flyers also requires people to answer these kind of question...) Ok, so maybe such questions are important just in case you have over 1000+ applicants for 80 places only... But I (and many others) HATE HATE H-A-T-E it all the same...

Now the next part, if you very luckily get the job...
The First Day At Work
- first impressions counts again
- meaning cannot be late
- meaning must wake up freakingly early
- meaning must spent a bomb on your attire for your workplace if you do not aready have the suitable clothes
- and just in case you get lose... (happens to me all the time), wake up earlier then the freaking early and bring extra $$$ for a cab...
- not to mention the new information you have to jammed into your head...
e.g: what I need to do for my job, where is the nearest toilet, when is breaktime, how should I do my job...


(-_-;)
Now I know why many of my female friends wants to be a rich tai-tai when they grow up.....

Oh suxx I hate part-time jobs...

Hmmm... Not really...

I hate employers who doesn't employ me for their part-time jobs.
Why?? Why?? Why??
Why doesn't m1 wants to employ me for their admin job?? I've being waiting for like 10 days for them to contact me and I still get nothing. No replys other from the first one "Thank you for your interest. We will revert to you soon."

What the.....

My mom told me, whenever I get this kind of replies, I sure-comfirm-gurantee-plus-chop wouldn't get the bloody job...

Hell, I want to complain. Why must they let us wait for sooooo long before they decide to contact you, or in some cases, did not contact you at all??
Couldn't they like, put in a time frame :
e.g: We will contact you if you have been selected for the job within two weeks, and failure to do so will means that you suxx so go get another job??

Crap... Since they didn't contact me, I should go call them and clarifly right?
No, I don't have their contact number. I only have their e-mail address. That's how I send my resume.
Then I should send them an email to ask right?
No, they would not reply, aready did that when I try to enquiry and when I send my 1st resume... That's right they only reply to my 2nd resume...

Oh no, I should stop whining and go find another job...
And that is what I really hate, other then the bloody interviews after searching for the job...
How should I search?? Use the Internet!!!
Heck, to my disappointment, nobody wants part-timers...
Ok not nobody, but I just couldn't find a decent one... Or that I'm a really lousy searcher...
Decent job aka >$5 per hr, not too far, and preferably not sales (cos I hate smiling at customer and then forcing no I mean persuading them to buy things...)

And my mom is naggggggingggggg at meeeeeee to get a bloody job instead of rottingggggg at hooomeeee...

Please hold while I scream.

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH..........

Thank you for holding.

Ok, enough yelling, going to find a job after a sleepover with my best friends at one of their house...
Cos we're going to have a farewell-cum-excuse-to-go-kbox party for our dear sister going into NS...
Happy Ns-ing Sister Da!!!!!

(Actually, sister Da is a very good male friend of mine, but who cares we still count him as our sister, cos too bad he is the only guy... ;p)

Btw, anyone currently need a part-timer? You got one waiting right here!!!!!
(wow, I'm really desperate...)

Opps, I'm late!!! Suppose to start bathing at 5pm!!!!!